Tougher Than Expected.

Bitter-Sweet End.

Really last game d.

 Chapter really close d. 

No big drama and hoohaa all, but well, I've learnt so much in these few years that other things in life never kinda really teach/show. One last game. Campus Gives Back. A charity event. Why not right? 

I've always been given the blessing to just kinda end things well in my own expectation. I'm not sure if you can really understand what I mean.

You see, when I ended my Starbucks Chapter after working as a part-time barista for two years at a different span of time (6 months at two different place separately), my last day at New World Park's branch was amazing! The last cup of coffee I made that night was a Venti Latte for an elderly Caucasian woman. It was perfect. Perfect two shots of espresso. Perfect skimmed milk with no bubbles. Perfect visual of the end product. I was amazed. That's why I can still remember it. IT WAS THE BEST COFFEE I'VE MADE, in visual terms la :)

And this time, it felt good that I actually get to score two goals. Two goals into that mini blue thing. Haha. Yeah, two isn't a lot. But two was at least something for me, considering that I have been so lousy in playing floorball lately. It felt good. It felt perfect. We won third place and that is something for me. Still got medal, not bad heh. 

Bitter-sweet feeling to close this one. If it's not for floorball, I would not have pushed myself further than what I thought my limit was. Mental strength that I've gained. So many new friends I've met. The love (at times) to run and sweat. To have met the best friend. To have seen how Christ have been glorified.

Though me no more playing, me is gonna still watch for sure. I still enjoy watching floorball matches every now and then. Actually that's how I came to like it, when I was watching the games at Dalat long time ago :)

So yeah. Story of my life continues. Now I have a new ongoing hobby :) Loving it every single time. Genesis twenty nine now :)

Goodnight guys.

What Love Really Means.



He cries in the corner where nobody sees

He's the kid with the story no one would believe

He prays every night, "Dear God won't you please...

Could you send someone here who will love me?"

Who will love me for me

Not for what I have done or what I will become

Who will love me for me

'Cause nobody has shown me what love

What love really means

Her office is shrinking a little each day

She's the woman whose husband has run away

She'll go to the gym after working today

Maybe if she was thinner then he would've stayed

And she says...

Who will love me for me?

Not for what I have done or what I will become

Who will love me for me?

'Cause nobody has shown me what love, what love really means

He's waiting to die as he sits all alone

He's a man in a cell who regrets what he's done

He utters a cry from the depths of his soul

"Oh Lord, forgive me, I want to go home"

Then he heard a voice somewhere deep inside

And it said

"I know you've murdered and I know you've lied

I have watched you suffer all of your life

And now that you'll listen, I'll tell you that I..."

I will love you for you

Not for what you have done or what you will become

I will love you for you

I will give you the love

The love that you never knew

I was driving along the highway back to the island via Penang Bridge and this song played. Tears rolled down my cheeks without me even realizing it. It was one of God's greatest-chun-nest reminder. Everyone needs that once in a while, if not everyday :)

So, here's a reminder (play the song and follow the lyrics if you may) to those who reads this and my prayer is that you know you are loved because of who you are, and not for what you have done or what you will become.

The ultimate LOVE that never fails, Jesus.

One Year Five Days.

Speak of CRAZY and FAST.

I can never be able to grasp how long short it has been since I started this Work Chapter. The flashback photos of when I sat at this desk and slowly starting to fill the things on the table are still very fresh and unreal.

I am tied to a two-year contract and I'm halfway there. No matter how long I have been working, it's still difficult to let it sink that this is what LIFE is gonna be (partly) since a year ago. No more college-party-watch movie anytime anymore. It's all gonna be work and earn money, whether working for other people or doing own business.

I am thankful for the experience I've gained over this one year. It's been fun and exciting. At the same time, I'm really thankful that I've been given the chance to join in so many projects and travel fairs.

Not to also mention, the FREE All-Inclusive-Holiday that I was given. Club Med Cherating is one of the most amazing holidays I've ever been to. The food, the people, the deluxe room, the activities, the place. All are very good. And we even got to join them celebrating some event (I can't remember whether it was for Christmas or New Year's Eve or something) and watched fireworks from like the VIP place, sort of. Open-air party in the garden just beside the beach. AMAZING!

Will I go back to Club Med Cherating again? No. Because I want to go the other Club Meds in the world. Gotta try new things right? Oh yeah, Club Med Cherating is the FIRST Club Med property built in the whole of South-East Asia. Cool heh?

Club med Phuket is my next target, I think. Fingers all crossed and prayers prayed. Hopefully, the next time I go, it would be with a bunch of good friends and family :) Ahhh, all the fruit juices and finger-licking food to be indulged in. Oooh. Hopes are high, so what? Keep hoping la :)

Entering into my second year makes me more confident people in the things I do. Definitely enjoy meeting people, in large or small companies. Okla, don't really want to go so much in details on things like that. There are obviously bumps on the way and how I hated starting work on Mondays. That sucks, just for anybody. So, it's like everyone's-problem-on-Mondays. CONFIRM!

Good news for everyone. It's finally Wednesday! Two more days to weekends! Weird, but somehow I'm not looking forward to this week's weekend. Hmmmph.

GO CORPORATE PRAYER TONIGHT YOU GUYS AT FGA CENTRE, 8:30pm! :)

See you all there :)

Campur Semua.

The second day of the week and I feel bleh. 

Not because I have to work, but the fact that last night when I went home after work, the first thing I did was go towards Sha Lynn, whom at that time was crying stones and rocks. Like so loudly and she won't even stop. We even thought at one point that maybe she was feeling unwell in her tummy or stuff. Manatau, she went back home and she started chatting with her daddy. So yeah. The conclusion is that she suddenly doesn't recognize any of the Khoos. IT WAS SUCH A SAD NIGHT :(

This morning, I went over to see her but couldn't really spend time with her because she was still three-quarter half asleep. I said three-quarter because when I was there, her eyes were moving and her eyelids opened once in a while to check me out). 

Then, over lunch today, I went back home and she's back to all smiles when I play with her :) Hooray! Mom even said next time cannot bring her to go vacation for too long already. Haha. 

Okay next. Bangla is going on a cruise holiday with his family in four days time. He's gonna fly to Merlion City with his lookalike-sister and then cruises back here to Penang (where his parents will then join in) then to Phuket. Superstar Virgo okayy! That's like the business class of MAS in the cruise world. Everything is top-notch. His family is just blessed with family friends who cruise all year long and they get to tag along and no need to pay for anything! SUPER BLESSED! :) 

Such fun times he's gonna have on board. And during his trip, there will be no line whatsoever. So, it's total freedom/torture for the whole week next week. Actually, not so bad la. 

Oh oh speaking of line and communication! There were so many times when I actually forgot where my phone was and when somebody I know took it and kept fo me, I actually felt sad. HAHA. I ACTUALLY WANT MY HANDPHONE TO BE LOST AND NEVER FOUND! Yeah, so that I have a valid reason to get my Q10. Super downz la. 

The time will come when I can finally hold my baby in the palm of my hands :) One day..

I will eat my Kit Kat now and re-stock them tonight.

Exercise Feel.

Just one of the RANDOM and totally UNEXPECTED days when I suddenly WANT to run as much as I can or do anything that sweats pig.

That kind of day doesn't come very often.

And yes, I did run a few rounds today, because according to my tweets, I wanted to do so to "make" me forget about how I want Q10 so badly. Now, it's coming back.. Okayy..

I think Justin or someone else told me about teacup piglet when we were playing captain ball. So I googled it. Super cute but still, char siew is too yummy to not eat them anymore. Heh. 

Quick Write.

Finally, I could have some me-time to sit down and do nothing watch tv and blog a little, since the father is futsal-ing with the bangla and his buddies.

The past two days have been busy and packed with fun stuff/outings. Two nights in a row slept at 2-3am! No wonder pimples all are here to visit :)

Not to mention how much I miss the sister and her baby. Gahh. Separation like this is torturing. Two more days and I'm gonna just stay home and play with baby girl.

All wrapped up like a little cute thing! Ishhh. *cubits*

Also, I have been to most, if not all the shopping malls in Penang because Koay wants to get a pair of shades for the upcoming cruise to Singapore and Phuket. 

And he still haven't bought them yet. 


Raya holiday means a lot of makan sessions. We went to a friend's place on Friday, but even in my own house, there's always that holiday mood. Mom's yummy chocolate cake covered with melted-peanut-butter-choc-cream. I don't know what that is really called la. But it's sweet and thumbs up :)

And we have been eating so much lately I have no idea why. So stressful okay. Not only the tummy, but every other area is expanding also. A lot of things doesn't fit anymore. This is really sad. Time to REALLY do something. REALLY!

 Oh, and tonight we got another makan-makan celebration for his mom's early birthday! Eat again. What's new right?

OH AND THE BOY TOOK ME TO SAWARA LAST NIGHT. TOO HAPPY!
I was sleeping in my room while he left for football, only to find him home after 5 minutes he left my house and talking to my mom outside my room. My door not closed so I can hear them. I didn't bother la. I sleeping so nicely, conquering the whole center part of my bed d whatt. He came in, and lied down at the small side next to me and..

He: Babe..
Me: *mumbles* Hmm..
He: Later we go eat that one la okay?
Me: *no answer* *cos I was waiting for him to say where*
He: Hello? Attitude lo you. People talking to you.
Me: *very softly* You never finish your sentence also.. *I was very sleepy that time*
He: I said LET'S EAT AT SAWARA! 
Me: *straights jumps up and looked at him* SERIOUSLYY!? YAY!!!

Imagine I was so happy to be able to eat fish steamboat that I even agreed to go Paragon after that to continue searching for his shades, but ended up carrying Cotton On's shopping bag home and ALMOST got myself a nice comfy women's coat. CRAZYY. Then, I had four glasses of red wine with his buddies at Precinct 10 till 2am and supper at Jiao Sai. Long night but so good catching up with his friends after so long :)

Alright. Till next time.