Wedding Update 8.

I actually don't really know how to start this post.

It's not really a wedding update but it is related to that so can lah. 

I have been wanting to express myself fully here since yesterday but I was way too tired after getting home from life-group. I thought that I would have forgotten about it when I woke up this morning, but no, so here I am.

Okay, I'm going to try my best to word it out. 

There has been undeniably a lot of disagreements between the huz-to-be and myself when it comes to anything related to the wedding that's happening in 5 months' time. 

It did not come as a shocking thing as we sort of expected it, seeing that we are both very different kind of people, with quite a handful of different taste in things. 

What is really nice to him, is super ugly to me in some cases. So, we argue our way through. That is the natural way right?

People argue because they don't see eye to eye in things or situations. 

This is where most people would 'agree to disagee' which we do but really rarely. We often want to talk till something is settled, but if not then we leave it at that and it would somehow surface again. 

Wow, I think this is probably one of the most honest post that I will ever do on us. 

Anyways, it has been a struggle for me to go through this. If I'm correct, we've never argued so much since we got together 4 years ago and I cannot say that it has affected my feelings towards him, because I love Adrian no matter what. But it has certainly affected on how I see through the planning for our big day. 

The one question that people always ask me is this: How's the wedding prep?

Often times, my reaction is a mixture of excited and clueless (if I may be super honest). Clueless because it's just so difficult to get things sorted when we both have such different preferences and please don't get me wrong. We will always manage to meet halfway and agree on one thing we both are okay with but all that will only be achieved usually after a lot of arguments and heartaches. 

Sad but true. 

Being at Joe Sern and Jaryn's ROM yesterday opened my eyes a whole lot. I realized the one thing that I have failed to see for so many months. 

The man that I'm going to be with for the rest of my life. 

The man who I will go through hard times and good times with. 

The man who will be my children's daddy. 

The man I truly love with my entire life.

 The man who is still at a mourning stage for losing the most important man in his life, his father. He misses his dad everyday of his life, and it is with no doubt that on our wedding day, he will miss him hundred times as much and makes it more difficult for him to go through it.

So, all the details does not matter as much to me anymore. 

We have been arguing over the little-est things because we want to make this wedding the best one yet on our own expectations #bridezillaalert and along the little arguments, we forget the whole reason to having this wedding. 

It made me realized that there is absolutely no point in arguing over petty things for an event that will only last for a day. Yes, it is our once in a lifetime, but so is this whole planning for own wedding. 

Sometimes it is not the final destination that matters most, but the journey to the destination and this is exactly what I want to focus on from now onwards. 

I do think that he will have harder time doing this without his dad on that day and I am not going to be that horrible partner to not remember that. 

To be honest, I have always felt that I am giving a bigger sacrifice because I am the one who is going to leave my home and everything that I am comfortable with to go to a new home and start again with new habits and stuff. 

So selfish of me to think like that seriously. Good thing I woke up today feeling so different and well. 

With all that being said, I can say that there will definitely be a drop in our arguments since I am usually the one who is more stubborn right. Hah. 

Here's to five more months of fun times, Muthu. I love you and that will be till our-forever. 

:)

New Look Yo.

I have been wanting to 're-shape' ze hair for the longest time. Yes, if you have known me well enough (no need that well also actually), you would know that I appreciate the random need of cutting my hair, be it short like a boy or just do something weird with it. 

Okay, weird is not the right word because I would never be daring enough to dye my hair. 

Since I cannot do anything with my hair, I decided that I shall change the look of this web. 

I don't know since when but I have noticed that my color preference has changed quite a bit and as you can see it with your own eyes, it is pretty obvious what my favorite color is now. 

No, it's not white. 

I have decided to change some fonts here and there as well if you had not noticed it. Heh. 

Photo number one shows of an example of what this web is not. If really you are seeing this kind of font, please hit reload.

Photo number one

Photo number two is the correct one. If you think it's not so nice, also bo-pian already since you don't come see my web everyday also. Hah. I feel its quite nice lah, unless some kind souls want to help me re-design till super nice, that of course I don't mind. Hah.

Photo number two

Ah, I feel so satisfied now.

Weekend is here already okay bye now.

28.

What is so important that I am sacrificing my sleep to write this?

It's my birthday that's why! Heh. Tebal punya muka ni. 

To be honest, since I turned twenty-five (yes, I'm going to be honest about my age just this once!
 Heh), three years ago, I became very reluctant to celebrate birthdays, particularly my own. I don't look forward to it. I don't feel it, the excitement and all sorts. 

I really don't know if this is part of growing up and everyone that is at my age or older have went through it or are still going through it, but yeah I am feeling it. 

This year however, despite all the 'negative-energy' from every part of my body, I have decided to organize my first ever birthday party. No, I am obviously not turning one. I would be the world's genius if I am writing all this, being a one-year old girl. Hah. 

Never have I ever have a birthday party. 

Heh. 

I thought that before I am called by another last name, I should have a birthday party for myself and I am sorry if you are not invited because budget is a concern so only a handful of people are going to be a part of this. 

Gosh never thought it would be this mentally tiring to convince myself to go ahead with the whole thing because I actually really don't want to have it in the first place, but then I also want one before I kahwin. So how. 

I actually don't want to do anything extraordinary on my birthday and don't want to make it an event also. What have gotten into my brain seriously?

Regret also pointless already. Hah.

Turning twenty-eight makes me realize one important thing. 

I've always find it really fulfilling when I grow stronger mentally and emotionally, and I have always known that it is always most effective through difficult moments, especially heartbreaks. 

I have had a handful of heartbreaks since last year's birthday and it's crazy for me to 'assumed' that through all those painful times, times when simple/easy expectations were not met, that with time I get stronger. 

NONSENSE.

I realized today that I did not get stronger. Maybe 40% I was able to control what I say or how I react to it, but the other 60%?

I would say that it was slowly turning into bitterness, silent anger and ignorance. All these three buddies decided to build up a box somewhere inside the heart and hide in there for as long as they could. 

It was only tonight that as I spend time with God, He reveals all of those. 

Did I really get emotionally better/stronger by letting time go by and pretend that all will be okay again? Or the fact that it is okay if sometimes you swallow it and keep telling yourself it's okay?

No.

Not at all. 

Only God could give us that strength to be emotionally leveled-up. 

You can go through nonsense moments and you may think that it's all okay already since it's not stirring you easily anymore. Wrong. You are in fact one level down because you WILL have an extra room for bitterness and you would not even know it. That bitterness will indirectly control of the way you talk to a particular someone, makes a certain kind of decision and the kind of person you slowly turn into.

Unless you pray and you ask God to help you.

If you don't, you are not going to level up. 

Tonight, I did just that. Tonight, He came down and rescued me. I think I was literally drowning inside of myself. Phew, boy did that felt good. 

Thank You Jesus. 

Oh, and know this one thing. Humans will fail you, confirm they will fail you but God will never fail you. Knowing and understanding the fact that humans will fail you, will makes you realize that you should always put a reasonable expectations on one another because healthy expectations drive people. Heh. At least it drives me. 

Well, here's to a great twenty-eighth birthday for me :)

Here's a song that helped me through. Listen to it okay?

Pre-CNY Feel.

ONE HOUR TO A LONG WEEK AHEAD!

Yes, I am counting down. As tired (mentally) as I feel right now, I still have extra energy stored inside somewhere for party tonight yo!

I feel like this CNY will feel like this for one last time for me that is. Next year it will feel completely different I bet. Obviously for now I am loving the angpow collecting and all, but I feel giving angpows could be very fulfilling also. I don't know. For now, I need to collect as many angpows as I can. 

Also because my birthday is coming also maybe that's why I'm feeling everything in. Hmm. This year's birthday also feels really different. I remembered I didn't feel like celebrating last year because I felt so.. old? 

I don't know if that is the perfect word to use, but yeah. 

This year however, feels like I have to go all out because it's my last year of being single? Okay, not really single, but just not like legally attached with someone. You know what I mean? Like my last name is still Khoo. Oh wait, it will always be a Khoo. Heh. 

It's not like I feel after tying that knot means like everything won't be as nice but its just that feeling of going into something really new. 

It's like relocating to a new country for good. New place, new culture, new bedroom and new sleeping partner. Not that I have a sleeping partner now or whatsoever. Basically, I feel my life will change and I am looking forward to it no doubt about that. 

I guess the few months left with no preparation (G!) is giving me all the reasons to do big on any events before I sign the paper. That explains why I am feeling so broke right now. Hah. Oh well. 

Back to Chinese New Year feel. Although I hope for a fun season, so far it feels nothing like that, yet. I didn't even buy clothes till the final week and through Zalora. That was how desperate and moodless I was to get into the season. 

Now that it's just minutes away, I AM FEELING IT OF COURSE. 

So here I am wishing all of you a great Chinese New Year with people you love! Go and collect/give all the angpows in the world yo!

Friyay: Google Adsense Yes!

This is a good Friday because I have finally gotten the permission to display Google Adsense's ads here and earn in something that is not in Ringgit.

The happiness is not entirely because it's the US Dollar that I will earn, but more to the fact that I finally got it. 

When I first apply for it, I was rejected. Boohoo. So, I keep trying and finally with more readings and clicking here and there, it finally happened.

Have you ever like hope and do something only to be turned down a few times and when you finally achieve it, its like you're on top of the world.

One of the best feeling ever I have to admit.

I'm just glad this chapter is over.

Thank you Google Adsense for this opportunity.

My dream of becoming a full-time blogger seems really achievable now. Heh.

Have a great weekend everyone.

Oh and you can follow my snapchat: sarahkhooyw if you want to! It's really fun I promise you :)

C H A N G E.

The most constant thing in the whole universe.

H A I R S T Y L E.

I have no problem keeping it long and have it cut short the very next hour when the cut-hair-mojo is here. No idea why I never feel like coloring them.

T A S T E B U D.

There was one time where I went crazy over Cheerios and bought 4 boxes back home. Another time was beh teh saw. The most recent one has got to be lemon water. This one more like a comeback.

B A G S.

I only need one handbag actually. One that will last long because I really don't like to go for bag-shopping. HATE THEM. So, when I actually like something, I usually will get them because I really don't fall for bags easily. Like this one, which I'm saving money for. 

W O R K.

My office table is completely different than a year ago. One thing that I love about this job is that everyday is a different day. I deal with different kind of people on a daily basis and every company that I go to is different so that's a very big bonus point for me.

S L E E P.

I have decided to switch room with Vanessa just because. I don’t think I have a specific reason on why I decided to do so. I guess it all started when I started sleeping in her room very often whenever Kelly sleeps over. Well, it’s not like I hate sleeping with Kelly but because she kicks and moves a lot in her sleep, I tend to get no sleep at all the next day. Change of room makes me feel new and I love that feel.

D E C O R A T I O N.

The need/want to change the wall color and the entire set-up of the room is bugging me so badly but I also know that it’s going to take up so much money, time and effort. The three things that is pretty precious this year. Dilemma.

i P H O N E 5 S.

I change my wallpaper more often that anyone I know I think. I even will re-organize the apps as to how I feel or saja. Now, it's all color coordinated and all in the same page.

F R I E N D S.

This is no shocker. People come and people go. It sucks big time when people leave though. This year itself, I've had my fair share of people leaving, be it the island, the country or the workplace. It just sucks.

C L O T H I N G.

It has always been whatever that's simple and not flowery or lace-y or complicated. However, I discovered that now I'm okay with all of the above. I am now more daring in wearing things that I once will never even try it on. 

S H O E S.

It has always been flats and it always will, until recently when heels and open sandals happened. This is one of my shopping poison. Once, I bought 4 pairs in a shopping go in less than 2 hours I reckoned. Hmm.

L O V E.

This one please don't change already. I went through a break-up once and that experience is something that I do not ever want to go through again. So, lover of mine, you're staying mine forever already. Heh. 

H E A L T H.

This is quite unpredictable, isn't it? It feels like there's nothing I can do much to do anything about it but actually no. Things I eat, drink and do affects my body obviously so yeah. I think I'm doing fairly well compared to the last 3 years. The three lumps in my lungs are gone according to the x-ray months ago. My scar is surprisingly fading off slowly. All's good :)

M O N E Y.

If it keeps going up, it's good change. As long as the commitment stays at the same level then it's perfectt! God has been good to me in terms of this. I have got promoted two times over the span of my two and half years here :)

W O R L D.

I have been to more places that I've expected since I started and it looks like it's on a roll. I am always planning for a vacation, short or long. It's always behind in my head. If I can earn money by travelling, I would but then again I might not since I won't be able to see my family so much. If not, I would have applied for airlines cabin crew and fly all over. Heh.

If you know me well enough, you would know that I’m someone who loves changing things up every once in a while, but some changes I rather not have to go through them if given a choice. Oh well. Life as it is :)

Coach // Prairie Satchel in Pebble Leather

I would never consider myself as those who will allocate certain amount of money to get things like handbags, heels and hairdos. 

Never.

Until this year. 

No idea what has gotten into me but I have been spending money on flats and looking for handbags that can last me a long time. 

We were window shopping last night when I decided to walk into Coach. Regretted after that. So, there's this bag that I saw and I tried it on and love it instantly. 

I've been searching high and low for a red bag that I can hand carry and also as a sling bag when I want to and obviously I still haven't found any. So sad.

Then, Coach happened.

They have like so many colors right, but I especially love the red one. For the sake of memory and since it's my current obsession, I shall blog about it.

 I even had a dream last night about the bag. I can't remember the beginning of the dream but one thing very clear was I was opening a cupboard and there it was. This Prairie Satchel in Pebble Leather // Style Number: 34340 in all the colors available.

Then I woke up. 

Bleh.

I just called the Coach store in Johor Premium Outlet and they say they don't have this model there! THIS IS JUST SO SAD!

The price here is RM1,420.

I know right. Who in the right mind will spend a thousand ringgit on a bag that is quite small? I won't. I rather spend that one thousand on travelling.

BUT I'VE NEVER LIKED A BAG SO MUCH LIKE THIS ONE!!!!

Anyone going to the United States? It's about RM1,000 if I get it from the States I think.. I don't know lah. 

This is just so torturing. 

Ladies, never walk into a store that you might regret coming out from it later on. NEVER.

First Day of Third Month.

It's really March already?

My favorite month is gone? So fast?

It's okay. I had fun in the 28 days that I had. 

That also means that Chinese New Year is going to be officially over in five days time, right? 

No more collecting angpow. No more CNY cookies. No more going to people's house. No more. 

I was supposed to be patient and will till the last day to open all the angpows but I kinda opened it already? And counted it also d?


No idea why this year don't feel like waiting till the end only do it. 

Last year I managed to collect about RM900+.

This year only RM700+. 

Hmm.. 

Somehow, this year's CNY felt a bit more toned down. Like there wasn't anything major that we do this year as to compared to last year's and the year before. Even for my family, it was a bit more relaxed and boring if I may say on certain days of the new year.

I didn't even get any new clothes for myself. My first and second day's dresses are from my mom's. I was okay to be just wearing some dress from my closet but mom insisted that I wear something new. 

Hence, the first day's dress which I thought at first was just a type of dress that I will never buy. The color and pattern. Yes, I don't really have good fashion sense. Sometimes, not at all. Just wear whatever that's comfortable. Heh.

Anyways, I guess I'm gonna take a quick nap while waiting for Muthu to come home from KL. 

Sunday = compulsory afternoon nap.

Going Home.

Leaving this place in less than fifteen hours. 

Bittersweet feeling. 

I already miss wearing swimsuit all day long and sipping on endless guava juice. 

This is going to be a difficult goodbye. 

The Big G.

It's been like what, 2-3 years since my batch graduated?

I started working after I finished college, just as a part timer at Dream Catcher Consulting. I was a part timer because there wasn't any vacancy for full timer, so I chose to just be a part timer while waiting for an available slot to open up. 

All that before I had my graduation ceremony, before I receive the scroll on stage. 

It was one of the most memorable day on my graduation day. It matters big time. What was missing was my grandfather being there to witness my scroll receiving, but it's okay because my grandmother was there. 

It was an emotional event because a part of me knew that this graduation ceremony also means that now we can go our separate ways officially. Chances of not meeting up often is sky high. That saddens me somehow.

I've always loved the life I had during my college years. So, when graduation happened, it was bye-bye to everyone and we then move on to another phase of life.

Change, the only constant thing in the world, right? 

But this kind of change freaks me. People leaving, people changing.. All that sucks all my happiness away. 

I'd like to think of myself as someone who embraces change quite easily. I don't mind changing my phone's wallpaper, change my hairstyle suddenly, the way I do certain things.. I don't. In fact, change sometimes makes me happy. 

But this kind of change is a total opposite of how I would normally love to have. I don't like to have LDR with my friends. I don't like the fact that now we are grown up and out of college, we have our own life now.

I hate it.

Anyways, thankfully we still managed to hang out once in a while, just catching up each other's life. Most of the time, we tend to talk about our jobs and money and that's just so normal because people grow up. Heh. 



I don't even want 2015 to happen because I know more of this kind of change will happen, and my life will once again hit the 'reset' button. I hate it.

But yeah, it's times like tho that I truly appreciate. 

Oh, and CONGRATULATIONS NIKKI! You're now an adult! Welcome to the working world, where everything is a lot more fun except for the part when you have to wake up at 8am every morning! Heh.

Cherish your school/college years because those are the times where you will make the most memorable memories, as long as you allow them to be made :)

As for me, it's about time to finally face my reality. Or maybe I'll just forever stay at 22. That works fine for me :)

Heh.

Be Professional Please.

Weeks ago, I attended my very first garden/beach wedding at ParkRoyal Hotel, Penang.

It was so beautiful and it has always been how I would want my to be held. Probably not in the garden but by the beach. 

I 've mentioned many times before that I love attending weddings. All kinds of weddings, I just love watching people get married and the details of the decorations spread throughout the hall.

When I was at the garden, I looked at everything carefully as if it was my own's. I observed and I love how things are so simple and pretty.

However, there is this one thing that is actually quite common in weddings or any formal banquet style events.

The chairs.

Let me show you a photo of the wedding chairs at the garden.

My goodness. I was so angry when I saw this. So angry that I pointed out to Koay and that also not enough. I kinda continued telling him that it's very unacceptable okay. All that complaining during the ceremony. He also quite okaylah since he never shhhh me. 

It's not just this last row okay. I went and see the rest after the ceremony and all also this teruk. So difficult to tie a ribbon nicely? It's just like 50 chairs.. Not 500! Even if it's 500 chairs, I think the hotel should make sure it's properly done. 

People spend like what 5-6 figures on having you to be part of their big day okay, and you can give your client this kind of thing.

WHATTTT!

People pay a lot a lot a lot of money for this okay. And this is the type of 'end product' that you give to your client, ParkRoyal Hotel? I TAK BOLEH TAHAN.

Furthermore, it's a garden wedding and it was bright daylight. 

Maybe if in ballroom, people can't really tell because most of the time the lights are dimmed, but this one?

Where is your QC?

Even if your staffs are the ones being lazy and all, someone should do the one last check, no? Go through every chair and make sure it's properly done?

This is a very disappointing case.

If it was on my event, any event at all and I see these things, I sure flip a table. Maybe few tables. It's not cheap some more to do events in hotels, let alone by the garden.

ParkRoyal, I think you should buck up. This is just so unacceptable.

I won't describe myself as a perfectionist (maybe in certain things) but this is really an eyesore. 

The whole set-up was amazing near to perfect. NEAR. CLOSE TO. 

Bleh, I decided to post it here to remind myself of this thing. Who knows in the future I might need to plan events for people and it's this kind of details that also counts.

End of blabbering. 

Hola.

No, my blog is not dead.

I was away for the weekend in Malacca with my family for a short holiday because we all needed it. EVERYONE NEEDS HOLIDAY, LIKE AT LEAST ONCE A MONTH! Haha.

Anyways, it felt so good wking up this morning with no alarm clock and now I'm just relaxing on my couch with the TV on. IT FEELS SO GOOD!

Will be updating on my trip super soon! 

I hope your weekend was as good as mine or even better!

:)

Welcome Home MH17.

MH17, an international passenger flight was shot down on 17th July 2014.

There were no survivors. In fact, it is believed that the passengers might not even know what hit them. 

This is the deadliest airline shootdown in history and Malaysia Airlines' worst incident. Not to mention just months before, MH370 went missing from the radar and even until now, still not found.

Today, as I listened to the radio and read updates from Facebook, I have goosebumps all day. 

I don't personally know anyone on board this ill-fated flight but I shed a few tears today as the bodies came home.

When I typed the words WELCOME HOME MH17, it really did something inside. I really meant it. Welcome home, passengers of MH17. Welcome home.

This is home. 

Malaysia is our home.

I don't know how to write this post. I'm just everywhere. 

I just read most, if not all of the passengers life stories told by their wife, parents, grandparents, best friends and children. 

It's really so heartbreaking. 

Rest in peace, crew members and passengers of MH17.

Crew members:

1. Mastura Mustafa (F)
2. Ahmad Hakimi Hanapi (M)
3. Hamfazlin Sham Mohamed Arifin (F)
4. Nur Shazana Mohamed Salleh (F)
5. Dora Shahila Kassim (F)
6. Lee Hui Pin (F)
7. Angeline Premila Rajandaran (F)
8. Chong Yee Pheng (F)
9. Azrina Yakob (F)

Passengers:

1. Foo Ming Lee (M)
2. Karamjit Singh Karnail Singh (M)
3. Ng Qing Zheng (M)
4. Mabel Anthony Samy (F)
5. Paul Rajasingam / Sivagnanam (M)
6. Elisabeth Ng Lyeti (F)
7. Ariza Ghazalee (F)
8. Muhammad Afif Tambi (M)
9. Noor Rahimmah Mohd Nor (F)
10. Mohd Ali Md Salim (M)
11. Hasni Hardi Parlan (M)

In Memory of Aunty Ean Beng.

After being silent for a week, I am back.

I want to convey my deepest heartfelt condolences to Pastor Heok Cheow, Judson, Joyce and Jesher in the passing of Aunty Ean Beng.

One of my fondest memories with Aunty Ean Beng was back in the days when we would always hang out at Pastor's house, have dinner and just coffee. Aunty Ean Beng will always sit at the steps and we would always share Judson's embarrassing moments. I've known Jud since 10 years old? 

Wow, it's been 16 years huh. Crazy times.

We will always laugh at Judson because of the things he did last time. I guess that made me talk to Aunty Ean Beng more. Knowing her more than just a Pastor's wife.

Once, she saw that I was taking some cili padi on the table and she asked if I love having them in my meals. I told her that it wasn't only me, both my parents are also crazy over it. Since then, everytime her cili padi plant had its products, she would always give them to us in a small see through container. 

Oh! Not to mention how delicious her homemade peanut butter is! 

Also, the day when we visited her at the hospital, she remembered everyone's names and what they do and stuff. On the way home, Koay told me that he was very shocked to see that Aunty Ean Beng remembered him. Someone who doesn't see her often at all. Maybe a few times only. 

I miss you, Aunty Ean Beng. It's still very surreal that you have gone home. I know we have never say this to you but we love you. My family loves and prays for you. We are glad that you are no longer suffering. Thank you for being the person you are. Your life have wowed so many people. Mine included. 

I don't know how it must have felt like to lose someone so close to you. I cannot and don't want to imagine. 

Judson walked to the coffin and as he lay the flower on top of it, his hand remained on the flower a while and I saw his lips moved.

"Bye Mom.."

This scene is engraved in my mind since. Everytime I think of it, my eyes get wet a little, like now..

I know they probably have heard "Be strong!" many many times. I wanted to say it but I guess it's not going to be that easy..

To Pastor Heok Cheow, Judson, Joyce and Jesher,

Know that we are praying for you everyday. For comfort, strength, peace and joy. Know that we love you and we will always be there anytime you need us. ANYTIME. 

Till I see you again, Aunty Ean Beng.

Just Look at Sharon.

Feel What?

I don't know what to feel now.

Sad because it's working day in less than 12 hours?

Happy because it's only 3 working days and then weekends again?

Excited because I'm googling and reading up on 'What to do in Krabi?'

Confused because my left feet would hurt so bad if I put on my flats tomorrow?

Okay time for bed.

Dear Brain.

You need to stop.

You need to rest.

No more planning ahead.

Live in the current.

No need to plan what to eat next.

Just go with the flow.

Please go rest.

Please.

What's In Your Bag?

It's a fact that everyone loves shopping. You can be a guy or a girl, you will still love shopping. 

Difference is what kind of shopping. Most guys (I'm assuming) always goes googoogaga over electronic items or watches or perfumes *coughs*Koay*coughs*

Then, we have girls who loves shopping for any kind of things! ANY!

I don't really fancy shopping unless I set a goal to get a certain something by certain when. If not, I couldn't be bothered. I rather go watch movies or play bowling. Haha. 

One thing for sure both boys and girls will like is FREE SHOPPING! 

People give you money to shop of course you will like lah!

In conjunction of the newly opened KLIA 2, they are having this "Shopping Campaign" where it's called What's In Your Bag? They are giving away RM5000 worth of prizes according to your wishlist (which you have to submit!)

It's a-winner-a-day for 15 days! FIFTEEN DAYS STRAIGHT! So, that's 15 super blessed winners! Also, they have one grand prize that's worth RM25,000 for just one SUPER BLESSED WINNER.

Okay, I shall try to do less talking here and show you all more photos so you all can chew on what's happening here. 

To get the free shopping, just click HERE!

Basically, you just need to register for free and you'll have 'RM5000" in your registered account to spend at KLIA 2's outlets.

So, after you register, you will see a few categories of shopping items and brands and all you need to do is "buy" whatever you want with that "RM5000".

With this kind of money, I straight spam lah of course. My shopping list as you can see. 

This.is.absolutely.madness.

The 'lucky draw' starts today and ends on the 23rd June 2014! So, faster go and shop!

I can already imagine getting all that. 

So yeah! Go shop at http://whatsinyourbag.my/

Have a great Monday you all :)

Goodbye, Ah Pui.

From the time I was born till I enter Primary 1, my grandmother (mom's mom) took care of me and two boys. She was a full time nanny to us three. Two boys and a girl. The two boys are younger by one year I think, I can't really remember. 

We parted ways at the age of 7 to different schools and have never spoken to each other since. I don't remember how they looked like anymore. Actually I still can lah, just a little.

Growing up with those two boys have always been a very big part of my life. Those years meant a lot to me but somehow I've never talked about it to anyone, until recently. 

As kids, we don't really remember things that happened, but for me, time spent with them were one of the memories that are still crystal clear. I didn't realized that this child-friendship have such a strong place inside until I got the news about one of the boys.

I named them Ah Pui and Ah San. Obviously because of how they were at that time. Hah. 

On Sunday, Ah Pui's parents came to church. My mom recognized them and when I look at his mom, she did look familiar. When Rachel came to me and told me about it, I was shocked and happy. 

I was going to ask, 'Where's Ah Pui?" when she continued telling me that a while ago, Ah Pui committed suicide because of depression.

I was shocked. Shocked beyond words. 

Something in me snapped. It took me a good 5 minutes to let that sink in and when it finally did, tears came down. I tried controlling but there is no stopping to it. It broke my heart to hear this. It's really difficult.

I thought that I will not be that affected since it has been 20 years of no speaking/seeing each other, but wrong. 

I stood there and I let those tears rolled down freely. I knew crying will make me feel better. I need to know more about his death but I was told not to ask his parents because they are still having a really hard time accepting that. I need to know where he was buried. I need to know when it happened. I need to know how he looked like now. I need to know if we ever crossed each other's path somewhere along the line. I need to know.

Ah Pui has always been the noisiest, craziest and funniest among us three. He's always the one with all the crazy suggestions, only to get us into trouble. We always get into trouble, but my grandpa will always be the superhero and stop my grandma from scolding us. 

Oh and Ah Pui taught me how to do handstand. Actually, both of them were probably the reason I'm so not feminine now. Haha. Who knows. 

It's funny but it made me miss childhood so much that I'm determined to find Ah San. My only one left. 

I regretted that I didn't make any effort to find both of them despite speaking about them almost every year during family occasions. 

This is actually very difficult to put into words. I just wanted to blog about it because this is important. 

Holding back tears as I type this. 

I'm not very good at accepting death. I think that it's one of the hardest thing that anyone has to go through. Especially those who are close to your heart. 

Who knew that Ah Pui and Ah San still have that special place in me after two decades? Who knew.. I don't even know if they remembered growing up with a girl.. I hope they do. 

This is goodbye, Ah Pui. 

A difficult goodbye. 

You are loved and will always be missed. 

Always.