It's the fourth month of this year, and I only uploaded one post. Am I losing my blogging mojo already?
Life has been hectic. If that's not the word, then it would be chaotic and adventurous. In real honesty, it is so unbelievably hard juggling a full-time career with three young children. At the same time, maintain the consistency in our marriage. That is all hard work.
Oh, and not to forget consciously remembering to eat healthy and exercise often.
Probably a good mixture of all those, hence this blog almost died. Heh.
Anyways, here's an update.
It's been almost 60 days since Alex started going to a Chinese primary school, and if you have been following me, you would know that he struggled so much. Our first 5 weeks was torturing. It was heartbreaking to see him cry every morning before school and most days, his teacher would need to peel him off from us.
We tried many things, if not all - but none really worked. Or at least in my impatience, it seemed like they didn't work.
It was emotionally and mentally so exhausting, I found it hard to focus on Sofia and Adam, and even Adrian at times. But I knew that to go through with this, I need to rely on Adrian. And when he is running low in that area, I would tap in.
So, it was a lot of us taking turns until when we mentally could not. I felt that we have improved so much since then. Sometimes now, Alex would still have like bad days where he would cry before entering school, and it would take a lot lesser time for me to recover from that.
I know if you haven't experienced this, you would not understand how heavy it was but yeah.
Sofia is doing really well, and having the best times of her life in her kindergarten. When we give her our full attention, she would tell her stories from school and they are endless! Some stories end with her smiling and some with her frowning. She is learning to play the ukulele, and some days, she would come home and tell us that she doesn't like it because she just doesn't know how to play them.
Adam is already running (obviously) and he started talking too! It's so interesting to see him grow because he would start doing things and saying words and recognizing items that we didn't teach! It must have been him watching Alex and Sofia all this time. It is just such a beautiful thing to see! He is also a very cheeky boy.
Adrian is recovering well from the dogs-attack-incident few weeks ago. Basically, he was walking past (into) a temple to get to his destination, when 4 dogs suddenly came at him, and he ended up with 5 punctured bite wounds. Story of his life. Heh.
As for me, I am missing my sisters way too much. Like calls and all doesn't even come close. I am always on Skyscanner looking for cheap flights to go find them. BUT THEY ARE SO EXPENSIVE. Why.
I am also doing well (or at least I would like to believe so) in my career. I love what I do, and it's so fulfilling. It's no longer chasing after titles, and money (of course I need to still be paid fairly for my contributions haha). But they no longer play such a high rank in life.
My ideal life is to continue pursuing what I love doing, and going home to parent my three children and be a present wife to my husband. The reality is most days, when I go home, I want the children to follow the routine of finishing up their dinner, shower, play, brush teeth, read books, pray and sleep. Like I work so well with routines, but with children, we just go to be flexible.
Sometimes, they want to shower first before dinner - and even though it sounds like okay what right. For my brain, it's not. They cannot shower first and then only eat. Just because I know that they will 150% dirty their clothes and hands, arms, legs and body when they eat. Like no doubt about that. And I've got no reserved energy to shower them 2 times.
I am usually the last one to go home so usually, before I enter the house, I would take a long deep breath! Those kind where my shoulders will go up also haha.
Then, I will walk into the house, and try to hug and kiss everyone and ready to face the night! I kept reminding myself that I only get to spend few hours with them before and after school so I have to make full use of it. So, that's in the works right now.
I am still always exhausted. When I am just off it, I would cook or try to cook. I also need to push myself a little harder in the exercising part. I have been lazing for way too long.
Ahhh, so that's it.
Till next time, bye now.